Yeah, I'm still slightly depressed if you really want to know.
Honestly, I think I'm always depressed. My heart right now is like a tootsiepop. On the outside it's cheerful, and shiny, and happy, and on the inside it's dark, and sticky, and miry.
Anywho, I haz a bunny! Her name is Serenity Jael Holm. I love her to death. Not literally though. I like her alive.
I finally have somebunny to love. She's white, and has red eyes. I love her so much.
So yes, that's my Serenity.
Also, I seriously think that I could be bipolar. I googled: Bipolar-teens, and found this list, hang on, and I'll put it on here right under this, and tell y'all what I fit on it.
Children and teens having a manic episode may:
- Feel very happy or act silly in a way that's unusual-what do you call jumping into mud puddles in the WalMart parking lot? YES!
- Have a very short temper-I fume quietly a lot of the time, but yes.
- Talk really fast about a lot of different things-Dear family, would you like to comment on this one? Yes.
- Have trouble sleeping but not feel tired-Mhm
- Have trouble staying focused-I focus just fine, just because-aww, ain't my bunny cute?! Yes!
- Talk and think about sex more often-This gets a bit personal.....but yes.
- Do risky things.-Like go skating after dark, stand outside during thunder and lightning, stand out in my front yard after dark? Most likely
- Feel very sad-Yes...
- Complain about pain a lot, like stomachaches and headaches-I don't complain about them, but I DO have headaches.
- Sleep too little or too much-too little
- Feel guilty and worthless-This is hitting very close to home. Yes.
- Eat too little or too much-I'm barely eating right now.
- Have little energy and no interest in fun activities-That's also me.
- Think about death or suicide.-Thankfully no.
I'm going to keep looking stuff up about bipolar.
Anyway, topic change anyone?
I'm going to try to get my mom to take my eighth grade pictures today.
I want to take some out in the woods next to my house, and then some at the park, and then some wherever Mom wants to take some.
Once we get them taken, I'll try to post some on here. They won't be professional, but they'll be pretty good. My mom's a good photographer. She'd be better if we had a better camera.
I like how I can take up to 4 hours to make a blog post that would really only take about 30 minutes to an hour to type up, simply because I'm out there talking to peoplez on facebook.
Well, anyway, I can't think of-oh yeah!
I'm trying to get my mom to let me pierce my ears, and cut my bangs to my jawline. She said no to the bangs, and to ask my about my ears when I'm 16.
And no, I'm not doing this in an attempt to change myself because I got broke up with. I've wanted to pierce my ears for over a year. First I thought it'd be nice, and then Aunt Esther pierced hers, and they really look nice.
As for my hair, I first cut my bangs like that a long time ago, when there was a huge knot, I was in a hurry, and the knot wasn't coming out. I saw the sizors, grabbed them, snip, snip, and I ended up liking them. They were cute.
When/if she ever lets me do either, I'll try to put pictures up.
Right now I can't do either one, because she won't let me, and in order for me to honor my mom, I can't do them. At least I got an ask me later for my ears, instead of a straight out no.
Well, now I can't think of anything to talk about, soooooo, signing off. And yes, I'm still hurt, and depressed and confused about everything.
Type at y'all later,
~Katie :)):
Serenity is so cute. :)
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