I'm Tired Of....

I know I shouldn't be posting rants. But I need to rant, because that's the only way I can think to tell people how I really feel.
I'm tired of feeling like I'm going to get raped, and being scared of most all guys, I'm tired of when I try to do something that I think is good, it not being good.
Tired of having one of my aunts and grammy treat me like a child most all of the time then expecting me to act like an adult, no wonder most teens have a rebellion stage!
I'm tired of hiding my emotions, and every time I want to cry and someone walks in making me not cry.
I'm tired of going in the other room to have alone time, and being followed all the time. Tired of turning my music up so I can drown out the world, and having it turned down again.
I'm so tired of hearing the depressing news all the time, and I'm tired of having my dog yelp, tired of every time there's an animal at the animal shelter that I get attached to that helps me to feel not so depressed gets adopted, and no one even seems to care about it.
Sick and tired of being left out, and tired of being depressed almost every night because the only ones who seem to understand me are my INTERNET friends. Not my family, but my INTERNET friends.
I'm tired of people saying that Donny isn't my brother just because we aren't physically related, tired of the only guy that says to slap a guy for kissing me without his permission is Donny, and not Papa.
Tired of wishing there was someone out there that would except every single part of me as me, and not trying to change me into everything.
Tired of being told I'm too young to "worry" about what I want in a husband, and that I wouldn't want kids, that no matter what I have to wait till I'm in my twenties to get married, tired of being told that I'm still a child, tired of being told I'm too young to have a job, tired of everywhere I go there being nothing that I'm the best at.
I'm totally sick and tired of having to hide my true emotions behind hyperness. I'm tired of being known as an immature girl.
I'm tired of not being able to find a math book, or a person, that can teach me math in a way I understand that does not reduce me to tears!
I'm tired of being insecure that everything will fall apart and I'm scared of hurt, rejection, everything!
I should just be a hermit and stay away from people, because I haven't helped anyone with anything, no matter what, if anything I've hindered people from doing things.
I'm tired of being terrified my worse nightmare will come back, and tired of nightmares.
I know I shouldn't post this, but if I don't it'll just get worse till I'm just a grouch. All the time.
Maybe sometime when you ask if I'm okay, and I say yes, just give me a hug for cryin' out loud!
Signing out from a room in Kansas, finally okayish, Katie, the hyper to hide her feelings girl